If only :/

Gosh I love him so damn much. Kelly is the love of my life. I just wish he could just really say something like "here's to the future because I'm done with the past". I did some pretty shitty horrible things in my past but that's why it's called my PAST! I wish I could take back everything :( and I'm not just saying that because of what him and I are going through, but because I really do wish I could. But that's my problem, I can't and it sucks so bad. I have grown up and matured so much and I can make a promise to not only Kelly, but to the world that I will never again do something like I did. I messed up big time & I realized that a while ago! I want to spend the rest of my entire life with Kelly. We seriously are made for each other. He is the love of my life and I will make it known to the world! I want to be there for him through every single good time & every single bad time. I did not know that it was possible to love one as much as I love him. Oh I love him so much. It's almost like the word love is not even strong enough. My love is unconditional. He's my one and only and I will never let us fall apart.