Another shitty day

All I want is for him to call or text me. I have something extremely important to tell him and he is just ignoring me like it's nothing :( I went over there last night and waited in my car for like a hour waiting for him to get home so we could talk, but I then realized he was actually home and sleeping. I was so heart broken last night :( if only he knew how I am feeling :( I was supposed to work today and I just had no energy, I called in :( this shit is seriously making me sick to my stomach. I can't think straight at all. How can he be acting like this towards me?? It is such a terrible feeling :( all I can do is lay around in his hoodie and sweat pants. I have absolutely no energy :/ my heart is so broken right now. I just want to see him, even if it is for 5 minutes! I seriously have to see him!! I wish he would realize that :( oh I love him so much. I really do hate this nonsense :( I can't even eat :( I have absolutely no erge to do anything, unless it is something that involves Kelly. I'm so hurt :( ugh sometimes I just wish someone would hit me (while driving in my car) or I just drive off of a cliff. I feel so down :( he is my everything & always will be. I will wait a lifetime for him no matter how much it just kills me inside. Well I'm going to get off of here now and just watch some lifetime movies in lay in bed.